7/21/10....the new challenge

so, its been a while. i think i've figured out why...i don't have a challenge.

i'm over trying to deal with work - i'm on my way to finding a new job...so, that is a challenge but not the one i'm talking about. i guess technically its not a challenge, its a relief that i've finally gotten to the point of realizing that its time to move on...so, no more talk about work on this blog - i'm done with that.

but, i have realized that the challenge i decided to take on last year has run out. the challenge to lose weight and get going again has been accomplished. i haven't lost all the weight i want to, but i have accomplished the challenge of proving to myself i can actually lose weight and stick to my plan. what made me realize this recently is because i've started to slip - not because i don't care, but because it doesn't feel like a challenge anymore, so i'm losing interest. i know one reason i've been slipping is because i have been really stressed with work, and i've turned to eating to deal with that stress....so again, i realized i have lost interest.

so, after a night of severe overeating (even though it was really good) i have decided its time for my next challenge - time to get to the next level....the Crossfit Games Afiliates Cup. The Crossfit Games is an international "challenge" every year where anyone can compete. They have a winner for men, women, affiliate teams, masters men, and masters women (masters are over like 50 years old or something). well, long story short...my trainer is putting together a team from our box for the affiliate cup. he put a post on facebook about it and he said who all was participating (the best athletes at our box), and he also said they needed at least one more girl. i got soooo excited about that because i would do it in a heartbeat - but i question whether i could really be ready for something like that by next year. it would be taking place exactly a year from now, in california. the top notch people from all affiliates will be competing - could i REALLY be able to do that by next year? i wasn't sure. i know i've made really good progress - i'm stronger, i'm increasing my ability to do basics (i can even get unassisted pullups now), i've improved accross the board - but i've hit a plateau recently so i'm doubting myself. i sent an email to my trainer asking him to help me - help me get to that next level, cause its time. i asked him if he REALLY thought i could be in good enough shape and at a high enough level to compete this time next year. i asked him to help push me and light a fire under my ass to take on this new challenge. his answer? he said to aim for competing in the games and that he absolutely thought i would be more than ready to do it next year. he said i'm an amazing athlete and i've improved so quickly because i'm determined and willing to work - so he had no doubt i could do it. so, there it is, i'm on the team. so the new challenge is to bust my ass and be ready for the games. never thought in a million years that i would be able to say i could be at that level within 2 years of working out again - but i will. i'm determined. i'm going to prove to myself i can do it, and to have a team that can be there with me will make me push even more. so as of yesterday, my challenge has started. back to eating right, starting my new more intense workouts, and a new focus. this is going to be my main focus of my life right now - not work, not making other people happy - but making me happy and fighting to get there. i'm going to do it. and i can't wait!

so, starting today, this blog will be focused on my new challenge. the baby thought is put on hold. as much as i REALLY want one, this has now become my focus and priority. i need to do this. i have to do this. i WILL do this!